life is hard and then you die
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Post by Comic on Jun 21, 2016 1:58:07 GMT
[attr="class","ttop"] I'm gonna fight 'em off COULDNT HOLD ME BACK They're gonna rip it off Taking their time right behind my back And I'm talkin' to myself at night Because I can't forget Back and forth through my mind Behind a cigarette [attr="class","oone"] [attr="class","tbbody"] her alarm goes off, playing a soft tune in the form of one of the few songs on her phone. its the first alarm, her brain registers, which means it must be close to ten in the morning. a second, a third, and eventually a fourth alarm are all set to make sure she's up by two in the afternoon, but she's caught by the first this time. and yet waking up doesn't quite come. something has her in a feel of warmth; marisa is assured that she's likely still in a dream that, thankfully, wasn't a nightmarish fit she normally has. her body feels entirely weak, drained of effort and ability to move. in fact, it even feels like something weighs down her arm, her leg, pressed into her and preventing her from moving. as is, she fails to turn the alarm off, which will continue on until the song ends if its allowed to do so. as her brain, remnant somewhere in the mixture of blissful sleep and impending hangover, begins the waking process, her ears perk up. she counts her own breaths, and hears more breathing than she can account for. waking up begins to come faster as everything pieces itself together. she isn't alone on the futon. MADE BY VEL OF GS + WW |
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Post by VALKYRIE on Jun 21, 2016 4:03:26 GMT
Thalia just had the best sleep of her life. She thinks that every time she doesn't sleep alone, but every time its a miracle: no nightmares, no insomnia, no waking gasping for air and covered in cold sweat; just dreamless darkness. There's nothing like it in the world. She craves it like air, more than air, but even if she's not exactly celibate, she rarely stays the night. And she hasn't had a real relationship since--
For a while, is the point.
In fact, it's been so long since she slept tangled up with someone who wasn't her, that Thalia's mind is five years ago and three thousand miles away for a few sleepy moments as the sound infiltrates her brain and slowly wakes her up. She yawns into a nice patch of warm flesh and snuggles against it, butting her head like a cat.
"Few more moments," she slurs, barely intelligible.
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Post by Comic on Jun 21, 2016 4:56:07 GMT
[attr="class","ttop"] I'm gonna fight 'em off COULDNT HOLD ME BACK They're gonna rip it off Taking their time right behind my back And I'm talkin' to myself at night Because I can't forget Back and forth through my mind Behind a cigarette [attr="class","oone"] [attr="class","tbbody"]her body has frozen in this embrace, and marisa can't begin to find the source of it. she seems to think she's in a form of sensory overload; theres the heat, initially, the press of flesh and clothing and meager blanket. theres hair in her face; not smothering, but there, and the scent of the pink mess is flowers, a maze of flowers, her mind cannot help but think of floral shampoo commercials in stores beyond her price range. the position becomes more intimate, an innocence in the hunger for sleep, for comfort. marisa tries to acquiese without moving too much; subtle shifting of her leg to allow thalia to come in closer, her arm gently moving to cup the middling of her back since it was currently pinned there. if there wasn't heat before, there is now; her face feels like it could be the same tone as her hair. she has not been in a position like this in a long time. she is normally the one to go to the homes of others, to leave in the morning after few words. her encounters were kept physical, brief, to keep them out of the person she is and was and still is. this is entirely uncomfortable territory to her. the woman from last night is in her own home, is currently entangled with her. marisa's breathing is steady from effort, but she can feel the pounding in her chest from nerves, from anxiety, from the scent of flowers that ease it all. MADE BY VEL OF GS + WW |
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Post by VALKYRIE on Jun 21, 2016 5:13:51 GMT
Now that she's swimming up through the haze of sleep into alertness, Thalia can feel the sour taste of alcohol in the back of her mouth, fuzzy and unpleasant. She groans in displeasure and tries to remember if they have Gatorade in the fridge. Usually when they go out they leave some on the nightable and chug when they get home, before sleeping, but from the pounding migraine that's asserting itself currently, she's guessing they either forgot or were too drunk to drink. Ugh. It's going to be one of those days.
But it's the weekend, and that means even if she's hungover, they can spend the day on the couch, their legs entwined as they lay on separate ends and munch on greasy burgers, flipping through the TV (on mute, of course, to spare their aching heads), making fun of the soaps and laughing at people when they lose on game shows. And then later, when they feel better, when the day is done, Thalia will reach for her and pull her down into her lap and--
Thalia opens her eyes. The world is fuzzy. Her face is smushed against someone else, way too close to make out details besides whoa, skin. But she knows this isn't who she thinks it is, because that's impossible; it was just a sleepy dream, a half-awake wish.
There's a brand of heat around her waist. An arm, she realizes. Someone has their arm around her.
Marisa.
The memories of last night crash into Thalia's head like an avalanche. She swears it makes her headache worse, somehow. She blinks. She wonders if she can get away with pretending to be asleep until Marisa crawls out of bed and then she can escape through a window, or possibly burrow a hole in the mattress and die.
But no, she's the guest. Its her job to be responsible, to not take advantage. Even if lying here is nice, and she wouldn't mind a little more of it. Even if last night was nice, and she wouldn't mind a little more of it.
Thalia sits up, face as pink as the hair that's fallen over her face, and smiles down at Marisa.
"Good morning," she says. She hopes its still the morning. She twirls a strand of hair around her finger, just like at the bar last night. Only she was wearing more than her underwear last night at the bar, thankfully. It's a nervous tic, one she's not even aware of doing.
"Do you want me to--Uh--I'll, uh--"
I'll see myself out, she wants to say, but chokes on the words.
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Post by Comic on Jun 21, 2016 5:50:22 GMT
[attr="class","ttop"] I'm gonna fight 'em off COULDNT HOLD ME BACK They're gonna rip it off Taking their time right behind my back And I'm talkin' to myself at night Because I can't forget Back and forth through my mind Behind a cigarette [attr="class","oone"] [attr="class","tbbody"]it is an eternity. each heartbeat spurns the creation of a new universe of trouble, of possibilities, of pounding in her ear that drowns out everything in the world. there is marisa, growing headache, the scent of sun-kissed skin, of last's nights whiskey, of the musty sweat of last night that still lingers in on her skin. there is thalia, who in her eyes is the nature of the day, for this moment alone. she looks up, away, to the sole window in her apartment; the curtain is drawn almost all the way, but a slit of sunlight is cutting its way into the dark. she watches dust particles dance in the sun. then the vision changes; thalia enters view. marisa is a deer in headlights; she has never really wished anyone a good morning, and can't recall the last time it was thrown back at her. she is painstakingly aware of their own partial nudity; of the hair twirling that was part of the first thoughts to remind her of last night's liquid courage that got her to this point. she is up and wishing good mornings and seems like the morning. marisa has no idea how to put this into words; she is no poet, no painter. she can only note what imagery flashes in her vision, her head. lost in this, she almost doesn't notice the stuttering, hesitancy, the initiation of a question and statement. marisa has no idea what to do in this situation, so she uses her hand on thalia's back to push her back down into a makeshift embrace. this is decidedly worse and much more embarrassing, but she lacked a proper reply otherwise. she opens her mouth, closes it. opens it again. "uh, good morning. do you, uh, eat poptarts." somewhere slightly distant, a car horn honks. MADE BY VEL OF GS + WW |
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Post by VALKYRIE on Jun 21, 2016 6:22:27 GMT
If Thalia hadn't made sure fourteen years ago, on pain of her own death, that no one could read her mind, she would have thought Marisa just read her mind when she pushes her back down into the warmth.
Her vision refocuses. Oh, there's skin again. Hello skin. Nice skin. It smells a little like alcohol and a little like the warm, musty scent people get after sleeping, all sweat and salt. She kind of wants to lick it, and then realizes what she just thought and goes even pinker, somehow, and squeaks a little instead.
"I love poptarts," she answers.
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Jun 21, 2016 12:29:33 GMT
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Post by Comic on Jun 21, 2016 12:29:33 GMT
[attr="class","ttop"] I'm gonna fight 'em off COULDNT HOLD ME BACK They're gonna rip it off Taking their time right behind my back And I'm talkin' to myself at night Because I can't forget Back and forth through my mind Behind a cigarette [attr="class","oone"] [attr="class","tbbody"]there is a part of her that, without any thought to guide it, has taken to messing with the pink hair. Fingers take to mimicing thalia's own twirl, and its a comforting feeling. In marisas own mind, her waves of red hair are a mess, unkempt, have seen better days. Its a nest of dead ends and knots, but what she has her hand buried in is something much nicer. She can feel the proximity, she can feel intentions, and her skin almost blooms red itself. She tries to find focus, get a mental foothold on loose ground. She cant just ignore conversation to get out of this, but what is it she even wants? Does she try to get thalia to leave? Does she let her do as she wants? Its too much to fret over. The throb in her forehead shuts it all up. Very slowly, feeling muscles ache at and rebel, marisa tries to peel herself to a sitting position. She is distraught at the state of her apartment; its a mess, a tornado alley of clothes and empty bottles of drinks both alcoholic and not. Perhaps she was right to keep her pinned down. But sugary breakfast confections needed serving, even as the yawn rises into her throat and mouth, stifled only by teeth and maw. "so, uh, yeah. Poptarts." Her eyes scan the floor and, with a small lean-grab she gets a pair of torn, ratty jeans. They look clean enough, if not at least simply dusty. She shoves a leg in. MADE BY VEL OF GS + WW |
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Post by VALKYRIE on Jun 22, 2016 4:24:15 GMT
Thalia reluctantly disentangles herself as Marisa starts to get dressed, and begins the hunt for her own clothes. She finds most of them in a crumpled heap at the foot of the futon, and she shakes her shirt out with a frown. The wrinkles aren't coming out of that without work.
She gets dressed quietly, looking around the apartment as she does so. She didn't really get a good idea of what it was like last night, she'd been occupied, but now she takes in everything with wide eyes, filing it away. It's a loud contrast to her own spartan apartment, the blank white walls and bare furniture she goes home to almost every night. It's messy, she won't deny that, but there's life here, vibrant and blazing.
The same can't be said of where she calls home.
Thalia stifles a yawn behind her hand and gets to her feet.
"I hope you have the brown sugar cinnamon kind."
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Post by Comic on Jun 22, 2016 5:16:42 GMT
[attr="class","ttop"] I'm gonna fight 'em off COULDNT HOLD ME BACK They're gonna rip it off Taking their time right behind my back And I'm talkin' to myself at night Because I can't forget Back and forth through my mind Behind a cigarette [attr="class","oone"] [attr="class","tbbody"]its all she can do to slip on a tank top and her jeans, its all she can do to focus on clothing, to focus on very carefully kicking some of the mess under the futon, under the table, trying to actually clear a floor path through her clothing mess. she makes a note to invest in a laundry basket. then again, it wasn't like this was going to happen again. she is still trying to find something to do about the dark heat in her apartment, and she can't tell if she's hot from the A/C busting out weeks ago or from the memory of flesh. trying to pull it down over her midsection - its older, its shrunk from ill-care in washing, but it was the first she grabbed that smelled socially acceptable and didn't have any blood stains from being used as a last-minute bandage. silent still, she pulls to her feet and takes less than ten steps. tada, kitchen counter. her apartment felt frightfully small, she feels small, marisa wishes she was going to shrink into the area. she takes a moment to pretend to search in the cupboard above the sink - really, to move a dish or two to hide a blood stain near the drain. her sink has plenty to hide with, at least, which is another thought that causes her to wish to be one with the wall. one cupboard. two. on the third, she sees poptart boxes - her arm stretched to its brim, she sucks in a breath to press into the counter and finally sinks her fingers into the open lid of the cardboard. she pulls, hoists, then drops the sixteen pack onto the counter. it now holds six, and she's been consolidating various leftover poptarts from other boxes within. marisa talks, almost a light murmor to herself as she counts it out. "strawberry... chocolate... chocolate... cinnamon." at that, she tugs it up, out, holding it up. a prize to be found. MADE BY VEL OF GS + WW |
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Post by VALKYRIE on Jun 23, 2016 5:31:16 GMT
She pads over through the carnage, smiling to herself, relaxing a little bit, as Marisa holds up her treasure. Thalia reaches for the poptart and snags it out of her hand, unwrapping it. She prefers them cold, and while she hasn't looked around, she has a hard time picturing the other woman with a working toaster.
Thalia nibbles. She might be wrong. What does she know, after all?
"If you have work, I can leave," Thalia says quietly, speaking half into her poptart. "I don't want to be an inconvenience."
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Post by Comic on Jun 23, 2016 5:56:58 GMT
[attr="class","ttop"] I'm gonna fight 'em off COULDNT HOLD ME BACK They're gonna rip it off Taking their time right behind my back And I'm talkin' to myself at night Because I can't forget Back and forth through my mind Behind a cigarette [attr="class","oone"] [attr="class","tbbody"]marisa is quiet, leaning into the counter, palms flat. she is pretending to look through her cupboard, but in reality she is fighting with herself over what she wants. having her leave, having the freedom to throw a fit and die and sleep and drink more and ignore walls of her mind and heart would be a blessing, but there is something about the idea of letting her leave like that that is tainting to her, knives at her ribs. frustration wells up because this is conflict, this is fighting, but she cannot fight herself with flesh and fists. the words said, marisa arches her eyebrows. "i don't do weekends," she mentions in passing, voice gruff. technically she did, but not until night hit. she only tried to work nights. "you're fine." she gives up false-searching and turns to learn her hips onto the counter, looking at thalia. a moment passes, eyes scan, and recognition flickers to life in her blue eyes. the previous haze of last night - of lawyers, of billboards, of unimportant jobs - come to the fray, as does vague truth that she's aware of, even in her hermit life. "oh." it slips out, almost, and one of her hands comes up to cover her own lips. marisa is more aware of who she is sharing a room with than she was of herself a moment ago. "valkyrie. in, in my, my apart...ment." do, a deer, a female deer in headlights. MADE BY VEL OF GS + WW |
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Post by VALKYRIE on Jun 23, 2016 6:02:46 GMT
Oh, she thinks. That's the end of that. She knows that look, even before the words are out of Marisa's mouth. It's the face she sees before someone crowds her in the store for an autograph. It's the face she sees when she touches down at a crime scene and the police look up at her with moon faces, pale and waiting for a miracle.
It's a face she knows better than her own. It's a sinking stone. It's the anchor in her chest.
Her PR smile flashes on, a brilliant wattage. "That's what they call me," she says steadily, unflinching in the face of disappointment. "But you can stick to Thalia, if you'd like."
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Post by Comic on Jun 23, 2016 6:11:40 GMT
[attr="class","ttop"] I'm gonna fight 'em off COULDNT HOLD ME BACK They're gonna rip it off Taking their time right behind my back And I'm talkin' to myself at night Because I can't forget Back and forth through my mind Behind a cigarette [attr="class","oone"] [attr="class","tbbody"] shit fuck piss is the train of thought chugging away in her mind, steering a dangerously fast course over hills of desperation and the uncanny valley of fucking nothing. while someone of a more lawful upbringing might be concerned about thalia being a celebrity, marisa was simply worried about her own illicit activities coming to light or being known. that would be a way to ruin the night. she has to say something, though. she has to say something after feeling her face flush at the smile, looking down. she turns away for a moment, flicking on the coffee maker crammed in the corner - the light buzzes on and it begins to heat. she opens her mouth and a sound initially comes out as she goes to talk, then nothing, then she turns back, a slightly concerned look on her face - but for herself, the face of someone trying to work out what to say. "well," she begins, rolling over the words. "you're kind of, only thalia to me?" she shrugs, quelling all the anxiety inside by simply trying to ignore all of it. it is only vaguely working. "i didn't meet valkyrie last night. valkyrie isn't here to save the day."the coffee dings, heat on. she turns away, glad to be able to hide her face. she's awful at trying to explain this stuff, and is internally mugging herself for trying. "thalia is who saved the day. y'know?" MADE BY VEL OF GS + WW |
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Post by VALKYRIE on Jun 23, 2016 7:28:32 GMT
Thalia buries her face in her poptart as Marisa speaks, almost as embarrassed as the other woman.
"No," she agrees. "Valkyrie isn't here. I only wanted to be Thalia. It was nice, just being Thalia. N-not that I'm not grateful for Valkyrie, but you were looking at me and you didn't see anyone else."
Oh god, she's doing it. She's rambling again and making no sense. There's no stopping her when she gets like this.
"I'm glad that's you wanted," she finishes lamely.
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Post by Comic on Jun 24, 2016 3:15:19 GMT
[attr="class","ttop"] I'm gonna fight 'em off COULDNT HOLD ME BACK They're gonna rip it off Taking their time right behind my back And I'm talkin' to myself at night Because I can't forget Back and forth through my mind Behind a cigarette [attr="class","oone"] [attr="class","tbbody"]marisa feels her mouth dry up as she realizes she has said something right. she fumbles a bit, turning to look back at thalia and giving a light smile. no teeth, just taut lips pulled up, just creases and old light scars showing, just the slightest of freckles in the dreary light of an apartment that hasn't turned any lights on. "i don't, well, i don't need a hero." shrugs. she takes a moment to try to straighten her tank top back out, to cover fringes of skin, but it fixes itself back to how it was. "i just needed... i wanted..." for someone who would normally emit a radiance of anger and violence, she is sheepish, she is mild. she is stumbling for words and is more than happy to accept the secondary noise of her coffee maker and drops her sentence. mug in, coffee out. black coffee, strong, scent now filling the area. she takes it up in one hand, other supporting herself on the counter. only now, as she leans back, does she really take in how much smaller thalia looks compared to herself, and how much smaller she seems now compared to the persona people see on the news, on the initiative. "do, uh... do you have work today?" she was asked, but she never reciprocated the question. she didn't want to tie her down if she didn't need to. MADE BY VEL OF GS + WW |
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