Lonny had noticed the smiles, he was so in love with those smiles. Well he was utterly in love with Jakob but his smiles were sweet, wonderful, and heart fluttering things. He wondered at times if this meant he was smiling more around other people and he was at odds with it. On one hand, good he should and people could see how sweet he actually was, but on the other side of the coin Lonny was so fucking greedy as to want to horde all those special smiles all for himself.

If his smiles were things to remain only for him and Jakob was in fact not getting cold feet. He couldn't help the thought. Maybe being together a year wasn't long enough. Had he pushed him to it? Honestly the only thing Lonny had ever done to prove to Jakob he was serious about him was giving him a key to his place and of course his utter devotion was a given. He had never once inquired or dropped a word about marriage. He had thought he was lucky enough to simply hold Jakob's tender affections. Lonny tried to tell himself though, that it just wasn't rational for Jakob to have second thoughts. Jakob loved him. He felt it every time his fiance looked at him, touched him, held his hand.

He had to keep trying to drill it in his head that he was simply the more artsy one and Jakob just wasn't that proactive with things. Still worrisome. But then where would Lonny Gold be? Who would he be with out being riddled with self doubt and terrible things clouding the edges of his mind? He pushed it aside at hearing Jakob's question, looking up at him with a small smile and there it was again. Second thoughts he didn't remember where they were going because he didn't care and--"Mmm a few places today." He answered, giving Jakob's hand a squeeze. He had...opted to hold it despite being in public. If it was what Jakob wanted, Lonny was trying. Even if he still did feel horrible at the idea of messing with Jakob's image.

He couldn't help but laugh softly as Jakob inquired about food. "Bottomless pit." Lonny teased before nodding, "Remember the few caterers I showed you? We are going to visit those. See if there is anything on the menu that strikes your fancy."

Of course, that right there just proved how much Jakob was better at all this than Lonny. If only those sort of thoughts ran through his head he'd feel awful. But then he always felt rather awful about himself. It wasn't anything Jakob was doing wrong though. Far from it really Jakob always did things so very right. He truly was the most wonderful person Lonny knew. He couldn't help his thoughts though. It was like a disease and he had long since been effected. Lonny simply tried his best not to show it.

Suppose for someone so smart either, it hadn't occurred to him the medical things that came with being married. Lonny perhaps was a bit mushier in just having gotten caught up in the fact that Jakob loved him so much that he wanted to share his life so completely with Lonny. Maybe it'd settle on in later, all the exact perks that came with being married to Jakob, but right now he was just in utter awe that he was getting married to the man, that he was going to get to call him his husband. That currently was the best thing ever to Lonny.

He enjoyed the small smile that was prompted upon the squeeze he gave him, Lonny's own meeting his though his was far brighter. He tried so fuckin hard to put all his worries aside with that one sweet little smile and usually it was a thing to make him feel better but as Jakob told him whatever he liked he felt himself wilt a bit. He didn't know if Jakob was simply trying to give him everything he could ever want or if it was just...not that interesting to him. Was he being silly or selfish? All the things ate at little bits of him as he tugged lightly at Jakob's hand. "It isn't all about what I like though, silly."

He sighed inwardly, a soft bit of breath exhaled as he looked forward, nearing the first cater, blue eyes glancing back at Jakob as he asked about his friends. Another soft smile curled at his lips. "Of course." He answered, pushing the door open to the place as they got to it. "I'm still trying to break it to them that I am marring the very handsome G. Rush." A soft laugh followed the words and once inside Lonny leaned up to press a soft kiss to the man's cheek. "Everyone is going to love you." He didn't know how they couldn't. His closest friends knew of course, but some not so. Lonny had always tried to be very careful about their relationship. "Excited?"

Holidays were never something Lonny got to much celebrate. After he got away, gained his freedoms he stated to celebrate them with friends. It was wonderful. Lovely. More than he could ask for but now that he had Jakob? Oh yes. He loved celebrating with the other man. They were special moments he got to share with someone who was so amazingly special to him. Everything they got to do was special to Lonny honestly. They were his most treasured memories, things he sketched in his art books, wrote about next to the sketches, made notes about so that he could always have it to look back on.

If Jakob wanted to meet his friends though, all he had to do was ask and honestly Lonny really wanted him to meet them. He loved his friends too of course, they were just as important to him. They had been the ones to see him through some rather rough times before he found Jakob, before his world became more full and grounded. So it wasn't something at all far from Lonny's mind and he already had the idea to try and do a lunch or dinner or outing, something where Jakob could meet them...if he wanted to. Lonny thought Jakob needed more friends anyway. So he hoped he would want to.

It would indeed, be something to ignite a war. Jakob's handsomeness. Lonny was forever rooting on it. He didn't know how the boy could tell him he wasn't handsome. He was the most attractive man he had ever been graced to lay his sort of horrible eyes on. He could spend hours sketching, painting, Jakob. Hours lost to ever carefully crafted curve with the up most love and attention. He'd surely get to argue with him about it for always if they lasted. He really hoped they lasted. God he hoped they did.

He flushed some when he caught the look Jakob gave him. Never one to blush, but Jakob got it out of him from time to time. Especially if he were looking at him like he was right now. It warmed him to his very core being...and helped dissipate his worries for now. How could he allow himself to be riddled by doubt when Jakob was looking at him like that? He couldn't. Once inside, he smiled as Jakob told him he was excited, that too making him feel a little better but he did notice something off. Aaah. Nervous. He raised their joined hands to his lips next, brushing his lips over the tips of his fingers. "It will be okay. I promise." Lonny murmured warmly, lowering their hands from his lips as a woman appeared from behind a door behind the counter. "Aah Hello!" She chimed and Lonny smiled and greeted her in return, walking Jakob up with him to the counter while he told the lady they had an appointment to look over menus, discuss wedding planning. All that fun jazz.

And again, like any other time Lonny got a smile aimed his way from Jakob, he fell for it all over. Swear to god he had never been such a mushy creature until Jakob stepped into his life. there had not been time for mush in the sin that he spun to try and tell a tail or romance or love that was not there. There was nothing real to the lies he told himself...as lies aren't real. He loved that smile as much as he loved the man who made it, and he managed to keep his mouth shut this time around. You know. On vocalizing just how much he loved that smile. Sometimes he couldn't help but tell him but sometimes he felt so silly saying it over and over again.

Lonny's smile turned into that of something sweet, happy, private despite the fact they were hardly anywhere you would consider private. He went from holding Jakob's hand to lacing their fingers as Jakob nuzzled his nose into his temple, making his feel so terribly warm and then the kiss he recieved to it just after had him wishing they weren't be proper adults trying to pull together a wedding. It made him wish he was home so he could curl up in Jakob's lap. Jakob made him want to turn into the laziest creature when he was around. That was for sure.

Ah but they were adults indeed and he had a wedding to plan, one he was still excited about of course but even excited the idea of simply snuggling up with Jakob was ever so tempting. So with the appearance of the woman Lonny had to jump to being an adult, fingers remaining laced between Jakob, missing the closeness of his fiance, his sweet and gentle affection immediately but he had plenty of time now did he not? To have any of it he could want? He looked forward to that. Blue eyes raised to his partner as he asked if they would get to try anything today. He couldn't help smiling, head turning as he leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to Jakob's upper arm while the woman smiled apologetically. "Oh sorry sir, tastings are booked after a selection of what you might be interested in."

Lonny turned his head to give her his own sweet smile. "It is okay." Lonny assured her, giving Jakob's hand a squeeze. "Ah well then! How about your follow me back to my office and I'll start with getting us all something to drink. Do you prefer water? Soda? Tea?" she asked as she turned and beckoned them down a short hall and opened a door to nicely furnished sitting room with a desk toward the back wall.

The woman smiled as Jakob offered up his request, her warm gaze shifting to Lonny as he leaned in against Jakob, feeling safe to do so in the presence of a woman who could possibly help them arrange things with in their wedding. He had been doing good so far though, had he not? Holding Jakob's hand in public, sticking close. Things he hadn't ever allowed himself before now. The blond was trying though, because Jakob deserved it. He was trying to be less afraid of what people might say if Jakob was not worried. He couldn't help but worry though. It was truly the last thing Lonny wanted to do to Jakob, give him more bad press.

"I'll have tea as well please." Lonny answered and she smiled before waving them to sit, "please do make yourself comfortable. I will be back momentarily with your tea." She said with another smile and Lonny waited for her to leave before he glanced at the love seat that was surely meant for the couples to sit in because across from it was one single matching chair to the set that surely was for her to sit at. So carefully Lonny tugged Jakob along, walking between the space cleared for feet as there was a rather nice looking coffee table between the couch and the chair.

Once seated, he tugged Jakob lightly to do the same, his smile soft as he waited and once his Fiance was beside him, Lonny scooted closer, his temple coming to rest on Jakob's shoulder. He nuzzled at the spoke gently a moment before he tipped his head to look up at Jakob and slowly released his hand to wrap both his arms around the other man's waist. "I adore you." He murmured simply because he could and sat up some to press a kiss to his jaw.

Honestly Lonny was sort of winging it and looking down checks to mark on a list of things he had gathered that needed doing from bridal magazine tips. Marriage was never something he had ever familiarized himself with as it was just not something he thought would be drawn for his hand of cards. He knew the essential things you needed to try and book right away however, the church or venue in which you were holding your wedding and or reception, the food, the cake, and the flowers. At least he hoped those were all the essentials need to be done right away. Maybe he should have looked into trying to talk to a wedding planner.

He tried not to overwhelm himself with thoughts of utter failure though, the blonde thought he had done rather well so far. Well he hoped he was doing well so far. But it would be nice to have help. Which was why he asked Jakob things and when he didn't get much reaction, well obviously it had been a bit disheartening. A little stressful. He just really did hope that this was what Jakob wanted. For the moment though he had managed to bog down his fears and worried. Just for the moment.

The grin he got in reward for his affections was something to send Lonny spinning and he couldn't help but smile widely back up at the other man as he wrapped an arm around his shoulder. Lonny raised a hand from Jakob's waist and cupped his cheek in it, thumb tracing tenderly back and forth over his fiance's skin. "I can't just shower my fiance in affection?" He asked playfully, "Should I sit on the other side of the couch then?" At this he stated to playfully pull away before he paused as Jakob only tugged him closer at the same time. He stopped his teasing and leaned right back into him, sitting up once more to press another kiss to his jaw. "Is that so? I feel as though I don't know what I'm doing half the time."